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12.06 at 01:41 am

well. It's the midnight I won't to sleep In.
I don't know what is absolutely I want and I need just right now.
only I know, I need a shoulder to living.
I thought the days I left on this several days was really hard and I just tried to realize that I need that one,
the one that I always try to leave..
the one that I always try to keep in..
yeah, I don't even know, what should I'm doing to this.
should I leave or keep in?
could I named this GREY?
it was named by the hesitate of mine.
for now on, I don't even know nor to explain what's the matter.
for the previous I thought, is there something wrong to me?
or is there something happened to me?
then I'm not really sure what's going on here.
I look back and see someone who made me try to always leave then try to always keep in.
he seemed like... I don't know what to say but I feel save just by seeing his eyes and his smile.
why do I always look helpless by him?
why do I always look like a pathetic all the time?
why do I always being bad to him?
should I shout to him that I love him more than anything I have?
why do he could understand what's on my mind?
has he ever been think that I give my all to him?
has he ever been think that he means a lot to me?
has he ever been think that he hurt me a lot??
I don't know what to say anymore.
only I know, I always love him so much even I tried hard to leave nor to hate.
I always love him so much even he was hurt me a lot nor to made me cry.
I always love him so much even I tried hard to think SHOULD I'M DOING THIS NOR TO BEING LIKE THIS?
I am a pathetic hope, helpless then too dizzy to make it clear.

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